A short time....A long while

I started blogging when it was the "in" thing and after mere four posts I find myself unable to say anything or I decided to just shut up...Whichever was my choice; I don't remember it anymore.

So why now? Why am I back typing again? Is it because I am stuck in a bed 24/7 due to my recent surgery? Yup that's it. That's the short answer. If your not into sob-stories, if you get bored listening to people going on about themselves or if your someone who just can't take one more of these "soul searching posts" then I suggest you get the hell outta here!! For the rest of you who's still reading ...Well you have my sympathies :)

Well I am in bed as I mentioned earlier and all of a sudden I remember that once long long ago; but no so long ago(If you know my meaning)...I used to write a blog and that I had a lot of followers too! Then I opened up my laptop (thankfully allowed to use that now...God bless the miracles that are called laptop and internet) and I see my last post was in 2010..Yup that's right ..I wrote my seventh post four years ago ... And what do you know..it was a poem...

I read the poem and it's a wonder to me that I wrote it. I was even tempted to check in the net of I had copied it somewhere! Its not a spectacular poem; its not a poem that would move you to tears; its not a poem that make you get up and do stuff that you always wanted to do. It was an average poem. What was a wonder to me is that it seems that I have better skills than I thought...Than I assessed myself to have currently.

As strange as the brain works; mine went into a whole strings of tangents of my last four years and I realised that I have been so hectic and stuck up in just going with the flow, getting ahead in life and daily stuff... I did the most rookie mistake of all..I didn't pay attention to myself and now I am stuck with a stranger who seems vaguely familiar and worst... someone who is underestimated and unappreciated.

Now that I am planning to embark upon this quest again; it only seems right I start from here again. And so if anyone has read it till here and is gracious enough to spend time on this; then I welcome you to my journey of self-discovery again and will enthusiatically look forward to your partaking in it.

A short poem from Moi

Have written a peom by myself, please go through and give me your insight :)

All the right decisions are not always possible
All possible things are not always right
Though you may try with all your might
Sometimes life is just like a kite
With no visible goal in sight
Sometimes in black; sometimes in white
Sometimes a festival, sometimes blight
And some days seem just a fight
But here’s the thing; take it light
Believe that everything will be alright
Though this advice may seem trite
Your future will always be bright
Life will soar and take new flight
And you will reach greater height
Remember one thing whenever in plight
YOU ARE YOUR OWN SHINING KNIGHT

(PS: Moi is "me" in french)

Ad in India Today

Many years ago when I was in school, my dad used to buy India Today magazines which came out monthly and I would go through them whenever I was denied “TV rights”. These magazines usually have full page ads in between the articles and I would disregard them and wonder why companies paid so much for publishing such mundane ads that no one reads. That is until that fateful day…..

I had a holiday due to Independence Day and there was no electricity. My eyes fell on that month’s issue and I opened the cover page and there it was on the left hand side…The ad that I have added in this blog (Image Below) which turned my head twice….



In all those years till then I had seen the same name Ramzan and Diwali probably 100 times and more, why is it that I never noticed the subtle hidden message in it? I thought about this probably for a few minutes and forgot; even I didn’t know the effect it had left on me then…..

Many years later, when I shifted to Hyd for my work I faced a different environment there from Blore. Everyone told me that Hyd is a volatile area for Hindu Muslim community and told me to be careful when dealing with Muslims. But each time I faced a close encounter with “them”, this above image would flash in my mind and I would change my course of action and decide that a person should be judged only by their character and not by their religion.

After many such instances I am happy to say am thankful that I saw that Ad and now I learnt the power of a simple Ad.

The definition of Love

Websters Dictionary defines the meaning of "Love" as "A strong positive emotion of regard and affection" as a noun and "Have a great affection or liking for" as a verb.

Websters dictionary does not define the feeling of first love, the spark of meeting of the eyes, the first tentative smile towards each other(Bet you never bothered about your teeth and lips before that!!), the fast beating of the heart when you first say hi, the awkwardness on your first date, the electricity of the first touch, the coldness in your fingers when you hold hands for the first time, the warmth in the first hug, the special meeting of eyes across the room, the passion in the first fight, the sorry's after the first fight, knowing what the "green eyed monster" jealousy is for the first time, waiting for your parents to sleep soon so that you can talk all night, the tiredness next day after talking all night, saving money to get gift for that "someone", hearing the words "I love you" for the first time and knowing its not the last time.....

Websters dictionary also does not define the feeling that you get when the love of your life thinks your just another one in the long list...the avoiding of common friends for the fear of hearing his/her name, the avoiding of certain roads and places for the fear of remembering something, not saving money anymore other than for clothes,crying late into the nights and finding your pillow soaked in the morning, staring into nothing randomly, losing interest in everything, the gut-wrenching pain when suddenly you remember a moment.....

Websters dictionary does not define any of the above.....Sometimes words are just not enough.

Quotes On Life

I imagine myself to be a writer and write quotes based upon my experiences and send them to my friends. A few of them responded back saying that they are good and asked me to put them up online,…So on popular demand here goes:-

• To expect from someone means trusting them, their judgement and opening yourself to disappointment. So expect only from few, not everyone.

• Fevicol and Friendship are very important in life…one to fix broken things and the other to fix broken hearts

• Loss and gain goes hand-in hand in life. Just ensure what you lose is not more than what you gain and you will know the measure of life

• Dreams let you escape from reality. May you have the sweetest dream tonight to forget the harshest reality you face

• Life gives many chances, while death gives none. It’s up to you to use these chances before they expire

• Enjoy every moment in life coz neither time nor age comes back

• Life is the one exam where you give the test first and learn the lesson later

• If money, power, position defines your success. Then the relations in your life define you

Objectivism and India

Coming from a family of readers with exposure to wide range of books; the one book I read which changed my way of thinking and influenced my decisions was Ayn Rand’s “Atlas Shrugged”.

Its basic principle is Objectivism. What is objectivism? It is a mix of many principles of Ayn Rand who among other things believed that a human being achieves true happiness only when one lives for himself and pursues his own interest to reach the highest levels of satisfaction possible for himself; that the proper moral purpose of one's life is the pursuit of one's own happiness or rational self-interest.

An over-simplification would be live for your own happiness and not for others.
But can this theory or rather the practical use of this theory possible in India (The ultimate example for a co-dependent society)???

Ours is a country in which bonds and relationships are a way of life and people here are dependent on each other .Some relations we love to have and some we love to hate. But none the less; we live with them. From the time we are born till we die, we are bound by the rules, customs; traditions set by our ancestors without even knowing the origins for most of them.

If you loved a person who did not meet the “standards” of your family; would you follow the principle of Objectivism or turn practical? If your chosen career is not your dream career; would you stay or quit?

Objectivism would say stand up against everyone and achieve your dreams; do what drives your inner passion; achieve the ultimate satisfaction everyday…..Live your life as you wish it!! But reality would say do the practical thing that profits you and everyone else; think about the others; think about your responsibilities…..

No matter what you choose; each comes with its own price. Now all you have to decide is what are you willing to pay?

కమ్ముకున్న చీకట్లోన - అరుంధతి పాట lyrics

కమ్ముకున్న చీకట్లోన కుమ్ముకోచ్చే వెలుతూరమ్మ
కక్ష్య కట్టి కత్తి పడితే చిచ్చు రేపే కాలేవమ్మ

నీ కన్ను ఉరిమి చూడగానే దూసిన కత్తి వనికిపోవునమ్మ
(జేజమ్మా)
కుంచె పట్టి బొమ్మగీస్తే అదే నీ గుండెకే అద్దమమ్మా
అందరిని ఆదరించే దయామయి అన్నపూర్ణ నీవమ్మ
ఆలనా పాలనలో నువ్వే ఈ నేలకు తల్లివమ్మ
నువ్వు పలికేదే తిరుగు లేని వేదం
నువ్వు చేసీదే ఎదురులేని చట్టం
ఓర్పు లోన ధరణి మాతవమ్మ
తీర్పు లోన ధర్మ ముర్తివమ్మా

జేజమ్మ మా యమ్మో
జేజమ్మ ఓయ్ యమ్మో
జేజమ్మ జేజమ్మ మా జేజమ్మ

జేజమ్మ మా యమ్మో
జేజమ్మ ఓయ్ యమ్మో
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నువ్వు రుద్రరూపం ఎత్తగానే కాలమే దద్దరిల్లి పోయేనమ్మ
రుద్రశక్తులకు నీ ధాటితో గుండెలే బద్దలై పోయేనమ్మ
బుసగొట్టే కామంధుని కసి తీరగా తోక్కేవమ్మ
పుట్టు గడ్డని ఆదుకున్న ఆ అపర భద్రకాళి నీవమ్మ

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ఎంత దీక్ష పూనినవమ్మ ; గుండెలో నిప్పులే నింపి నావమ్మ
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త్యాగమంటే నీదమ్మ నరకమే కొంగులోన ముడిచావమ్మ
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నిన్ను చూసి మృత్యువుకే జేజమ్మ కళ్ళు చెమ్మగిల్లినాయమ్మ
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ఈ జారుతున్న రక్తధారాలే నీ తెగువకు ఆరతులు పట్టేనమ్మ

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